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AgileOllie
11-10-2008, 08:26 PM
Ryan came into our lives in January of 2002 when her mom and dad were deployed to Iraq. We were her foster parents while they were gone. At that time she was about 12 years old. While she was with us, she had an arthritis attack in her neck on two occasions. She was given medication for it and seemed just fine after that. We fostered her for a year and of course, won our hearts. She was our alarm clock- annoyingly waking us up with a very loud and obnoxious bark every morning at 5am. When her family came home from Iraq, they decided that giving her one pill a day for an indefinite amount of time was too much of a burden, so they asked us where they could 'take her.' Of course, we knew that she was home with us. I remember the look of confusion on her face when her first humans walked out the door with out her. Even though she'd grown to love us, they were her parents for the last 12 years.

Time went on, and she became a stable part of our home. Where we went, she went. She was most certainly a daddy's girl. She had no problem letting me know it, either. She was his constant shadow. We both loved her, but she was his 'little girl.'

Ryan was the greeting committee for every new foster that came into our home. She was never ungracious. She helped raise litters of puppies, she helped calm the scared, and she laid with the sick. She was a true ambassador for rescue.

As the years passed, her health began to fade- first her hearing (we'd battled constant ear infections for her entire life) then her eyesight went. She'd lost slight mobility in the rear on 3 occasions, only to rally when we'd least expected it. Ryan was not a complainer- it usually took serious weekly exams to find anything wrong with her.

Recently she began to loose weight and in the course of a month lost about 1.5 pounds. She stopped exploring. She started having accidents in the house, which was highly unusual for Miss Prim and Proper. She no longer barked to be let out. She no longer barked just to bark. We knew the end was near, but we tried so hard to dismiss the obvious signs. Over the last couple of days I began to notice that kidney smell that is unforgettable, once you know what it is. I knew that her kidneys were failing her. I knew she was in pain. I just wanted one more day to let her know that even though she was a daddy's girl, that I loved her too.

We brought her today to our vet who has known her for years- even before we had her. He agreed with our thoughts and gently helped her to the bridge. She gave me one last lick- something reserved for daddy alone- and then fell asleep. It seemed as though everyone in the building knew what was happening. The dogs in the kennels in the back fell completely silent. My son, 19 months old, rubbed my back quietly as I cried over her. He softly blew her a kiss and pet her soft coat one more time.

Her daddy stayed with her in the room for the next half hour, just telling her he loved her.

We brought her home and buried her in between two crepe mertles that were planted several years ago in memory of Ryan's brother and sister who'd gone before her. It made my heart ache to see Miguel, usually strong and composed hold her in his arms one last time and tell her he was sorry and that he loved her.

Ryan had a long life and was loved by many, but made a huge impact to each and every foster that crossed our threshold. I know that everyone of them who has passed before her is bouncing in joy at the bridge, happy to welcome someone who welcomed them so warmly in the past.

A candle is lit for you little girl.

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AgileOllie
11-10-2008, 08:26 PM
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AgileOllie
11-10-2008, 08:32 PM
Her last night with us.

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Barb
11-10-2008, 08:48 PM
What a loving tribute to a gorgeous, beautiful girl. She was meant to be yours, it just took a while for her to get to you. Her stunning white face had me sobbing - she was special, you can see it in her face. I am so sorry for your loss :candle: Godspeed sweet one.

Jill
11-10-2008, 08:52 PM
What a wonderful tribute to her. :hearts:

areese
11-10-2008, 08:57 PM
What a wonderful story! You all sure gave her a wonderful life...
What a lovely lovely dog she was...you can see her sweetness shining through.

TheDoxieHaus
11-10-2008, 09:02 PM
Your tribute touched my heart immensely. :tissue: She sounded like a wonderful old soul whom was very loved.

ebmw1975
11-10-2008, 10:00 PM
Your tribute brought me to tears. She knew she was deeply loved by your family.

Otto'sMom
11-10-2008, 10:04 PM
Your tribute brought me to tears. She knew she was deeply loved by your family.
:ditto: :hug99:

oceangirls
11-10-2008, 10:11 PM
Perfect tribute. The pics with her daddy made me :sad2:. She reminds me of my two.

Welcome to the Bridge, little :angel: . Keep an eye on your mom and dad - they will miss you a lot.

Teddysmom
11-10-2008, 10:54 PM
Perfect tribute. The pics with her daddy made me :sad2:.
:ditto: Must go find box of :tissue: as it's very hard to type with tears flowing. Such a beautiful tribute for a beautiful girl. She is watching over you right now.

jenfer
11-11-2008, 12:18 AM
Thanks for sharing the wonderful story. :hearts:

Jen
11-11-2008, 12:23 AM
Definitely needed a tissue. Kissed Tasha in honor of Ryan. You had wonderful years with her, and she was so clearly loved very deeply. :candle:

Chaotic42
11-11-2008, 01:12 AM
Wow. That's a stunning story. I'm sorry for your loss. She sounds like a sweetheart. :hug99:

Rileybugg
11-11-2008, 04:48 AM
Beautiful tribute. :sad1: Beautiful girl. Many :hug99: :hug99: for your family. Thank you for sharing her.:hearts:

Patt
11-11-2008, 04:52 AM
I'm reading your beautiful tribute with :sad3: for your stunning girl. RIP little :angel:

Jacqueline
11-11-2008, 06:25 AM
So sorry for you loss, heaven's gain. :candle2: :candle2: :tissue:

Alex's Mom
11-11-2008, 07:54 AM
Hard to type through the tears. What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful girl, Tonya. Holding you and Miguel in my heart....:hug99:

Tex
11-11-2008, 08:42 AM
What a wonderful tribute to a very special girl.

Godspeed sweet Ryan :candle2:

AnnMarieK
11-11-2008, 10:09 AM
What a beautiful tribute....she sure was a special girl.

Kasianni
11-11-2008, 10:42 AM
Wonderful tribute :sad3: to your sweet one. I am sorry for your loss.:candle3:

bsquared
11-11-2008, 10:43 AM
That was a beautiful tribute to a beautiful girl. I'm in tears...I know she will be missed but will be a part of you, always. :hug99:

Rae
11-11-2008, 10:47 AM
bawling. eyes. out.
Godspeed, Ryan. You are a Very. Good. Girl and we all love you.

Thanks, Tonya, for sharing her with us. I am honored.
And :hug99: for your broken heart. Miguel's too.

JanUet
11-11-2008, 11:42 AM
Hard to type through the tears. What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful girl, Tonya. Holding you and Miguel in my heart....:hug99:

Huge Honkin' :ditto: There!

bittyup
11-11-2008, 02:55 PM
:tissue: What a beaautiful tribute to a very special lady. She was very loved. Thank you for sharing her story.:candle3: :angel1: