Otto'sMom
07-20-2010, 12:42 AM
He was so very tiny when he came into my life.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/Mississippi4059.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/Mississippi4001-8.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/Mississippi4049-1.jpg
And he won the heart of anyone who met him.
Some people go by the date of the loss of a loved one, but for me, it will always be the 3rd Tuesday in July, and the images, the feelings are not a blur. They are as sharp and jagged as the day I came home from work early to take him to that appointment that I was certain would save his life. Maybe I should've gotten gas after I'd picked him up. Maybe I should've dropped him off at the vet that morning. Maybe I should've taken him as an emergency that Monday evening...but I didn't. Instead, I came home to find his limp and lifeless body on the cool tile in front of the sunroom entry way, his little lungs collapsed, and there was nothing to do.
In the year that has passed, I have kept each and every PM about his passing that was sent to me. My mailbox gets full and I'm faced with them again, remembering the outpouring of love from you all. I will continue to keep them, holding on to the memories you all shared with me about a little white dog taken before his time, joining his mom Martini at the bridge with another of his litter that never made it to my house.
Lots of things came out of that day, the best one being Jethro's Anipal Sanctuary. I look at all the mementos everyone sent me: the pin and harness that Patrice gave me from Buda when he raced, the one Amy made with "Monkeypants" on it and the signature dog and photographs that hang on my wall...so many things and so much love. I finally framed the paw prints that I had sent out the day before he'd died. I had no idea they'd be his last.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/Mississippi4012-10.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/mississippi40092-1.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/Mississippi40382.jpg
I do focus on the happy times I had with him most days. I celebrate his life with each new dog I rescue. But today, the 3rd Tuesday in July, I miss him. I just want my Monkeypants back.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/Mississippi4059.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/Mississippi4001-8.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/Mississippi4049-1.jpg
And he won the heart of anyone who met him.
Some people go by the date of the loss of a loved one, but for me, it will always be the 3rd Tuesday in July, and the images, the feelings are not a blur. They are as sharp and jagged as the day I came home from work early to take him to that appointment that I was certain would save his life. Maybe I should've gotten gas after I'd picked him up. Maybe I should've dropped him off at the vet that morning. Maybe I should've taken him as an emergency that Monday evening...but I didn't. Instead, I came home to find his limp and lifeless body on the cool tile in front of the sunroom entry way, his little lungs collapsed, and there was nothing to do.
In the year that has passed, I have kept each and every PM about his passing that was sent to me. My mailbox gets full and I'm faced with them again, remembering the outpouring of love from you all. I will continue to keep them, holding on to the memories you all shared with me about a little white dog taken before his time, joining his mom Martini at the bridge with another of his litter that never made it to my house.
Lots of things came out of that day, the best one being Jethro's Anipal Sanctuary. I look at all the mementos everyone sent me: the pin and harness that Patrice gave me from Buda when he raced, the one Amy made with "Monkeypants" on it and the signature dog and photographs that hang on my wall...so many things and so much love. I finally framed the paw prints that I had sent out the day before he'd died. I had no idea they'd be his last.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/Mississippi4012-10.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/mississippi40092-1.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v289/Anewborg/Anipals/Mississippi40382.jpg
I do focus on the happy times I had with him most days. I celebrate his life with each new dog I rescue. But today, the 3rd Tuesday in July, I miss him. I just want my Monkeypants back.