It's so hard to believe that it was just a little over 3 years ago that the Js came into my life. Most of you know this story, but for those of you who don't, I had just lost my heart dog Alex, and had decided that I really needed a break for a few months before thinking about another one. However, I was doing rescue at the time, and 2 weeks after my old girl crossed, I got a number of calls about 2 senior dachsies whose 36 year old mom had died unexpectedly from cancer, and whose ex-husband was going to euthanize her dogs. His mom was aghast and asked for 2 weeks to find them a home. He'd already made the vet appointment when I called, but he agreed to let me foster them until I could find them a new home. My heart was still raw from Alex, and it was WAY too soon for new dogs.
Yeah, right .
So I went to pick them up. And found 2 little fatties...Jules weighed 18lbs instead of the 11 she should have, and James was 27lbs, instead of the 17 he should have been.
The guy told me quite proudly it only cost him $7 a month to feed them . Made sense when I discovered that he was feeding them Ol' Roy Smallbits, cuz they were having trouble chewing; god forbid he should take them to the vet to see what was going on!!! The trouble chewing was cuz they both had rotten mouths, esp. Jules. There were lots of other little tidbits he neglected to tell me: they had lived almost all of their lives in an apartment, never getting to go outside. They were "papertrained"...when the mood struck them . And obedience training was totally unheard of.
But they were such joyful little dogs, who were ecstatic when I got them home and let them out to explore my very large yard.
Within the first month of being here, they both had dentals and while James lost 6 teeth, poor Jules lost 32 - all but 10 of her teeth. And had a bunch of other stuff wrong too. But seeing the joy in them as they explored the big wide world was just what my poor old heart needed, it turned out.
We went to the beach,
and discovered snow (much to their disgust)!
and got REALLY excited about eating a proper (and home cooked) meal
Over the next three years, poor ol' Jules lost the rest of her teeth, and her spleen, was diagnosed with irritable bowel disease, had a butt abscess and a variety of other misadventures. She was such a little drama queen, you never knew if it REALLY hurt that much or if she was just being a hambone. Didn't matter though, cuz she was in general a happy, loving, sweet little dog.
And then, a year later, Wen arrived. James was NOT impressed, but Jules decided that she quite liked her new brother. And he absolutely adored her
So it is maybe fitting that she followed him so closely to the bridge. That is about the only comfort I'm finding in these last few months of loss...they're together, and her first mom, Ann-Marie, who loved her dearly, and who refused to listen to everyone telling her to get rid of the dogs when she became so sick, was also there to greet her.
But it is only a small comfort. I miss her little rooing bark at supper time, or when I came home. And I miss her little dances of joy that she'd break into at the drop of a hat. And I miss her soft little head when she'd cuddle next to me. But most of all, I miss her joyful spirit...she reminded me every day that life was good, and all one really needs is a warm place to sleep, good food, and being surrounded by love. If Wen was the best of me, Jules was the gentle part of me. And now, James and I, sole survivors, both slightly hard-bitten and a bit wary, rattle around trying to find a rhythm in our days, without her to balance us both.
Godspeed, sweet girl. You live in my heart, always. Til we're together again.....